This blog is a record of my life as the Lord shepherds me through His will. It is a testament to the lessons I learn, or attempt to learn.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Mmm . . . the little pleasures

Mmmm . . . there is nothing like indulging in fresh raspberries after a long walk on a hot summer night.

Lost Faith

I am totally writing this post today out of complete frustration and discouragement. 

Let me explain. 

I am simply one of those people who go to the doctor for something, which seems very serious, and comes out with NOTHING.  No explanation.  No positive test result.  No, yeah lets give you this for that, it will help.  Just alot of smirks, sighs, and rolling of the eyes from my doctors as if I had just offended them for wasting their time. 

Now, you might think that this all sounds silly.  I mean why would she actually want something to be wrong?  Well, because I absolutely DO NOT go to the doctor for just anything.  I have been through these sort of disappointing appointments for years. 

Not only is it difficult for me emotionally, but it also hurts the bank as well.  It's like every time one of my doctors gives me that "crazy lady" look, I just want to respond with "WHY!?! Why would I want to spend tons of money and time just to find out that, yet again, there is NOTHING?" 

Now, it is not all the doctors fault.  For some reason, my body clearly steers me wrong.  However, now, I have even been double checking with Jacob just to make sure I am not crazy.  I make sure to get multiple confirmations from my husband before going, because at this point, I don't want to even go any more.

This morning was yet another one of those miserable appointments.  Jacob and I found something which concerned us about my pregnancy, and since I already have a rather large cyst on my ovary, we just knew we needed to get it checked out.  I mean, we do not take anything with our children lightly.  I must admit that I was very worried and quite emotional about the situation.  Jacob prayed over me this morning before I went out.  Again, I am certainly glad that there is nothing wrong.  However, it hit me quite hard when my doctor came just short of laughing at me. 

Now, if you know anything about me, I am not one of your super sensitive, ultra paranoid, give me all the shots you got kind of moms.  I am rather laid back and I try not to let things bother me.  I try to intentionally rely on the Lord and give Him my worries.  So, you can see why it hurt so very much when I was so concerned about something, only to have my concern mocked at.

I am not really sure where I am going with this particular post.  Maybe I just need some confirmation that I am not the only one in this world who feels this way.  Or maybe I need someone to help restore my faith in the medical world.  All in all I guess I just needed to get this of my heart. 

I praise the Lord for always taking care of my family.  I am very grateful to be "healthy" and to be independent and mobile.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

The Mystery

Me: Where has all of our tupperware gone?

Jacob:  We threw it all away.

Me:  WHAT!?! What do you mean we threw it all away?

Jacob:  You know, every time we find something moldy and nasty in them, we throw them away instead of cleaning them.

Me:  Oh, yeah . . . we probably should be better at that.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Veggies Anyone?

After having a TON of trouble getting Ilijah to eat his vegetables (or anything that is not fruit or carbs for that matter), we decided that we would be force feeding Bella her veggies.  We weren't going to even give her an option.  We went ahead and started out with vegetables and didn't even buy any fruit products for her.  Well, the older she gets (now almost 7 1/2 months), we have decided that she can start having juice and fruit.  So, in order to still keep the veggies flowing, I have taken after the V8 juice idea, and I have created a veggie smoothy that she absolutely LOVES!  This morning she had a mixture of sweet baby carrots, country veggie medly, apple sauce, blueberry, soy milk, rice cereal, and apple juice.  I warmed it up a little, and she enjoyed the whole 10 oz. of it.  I love it because she can get a good meal in while still taking it from a bottle.  We just cut a large X in the nipple and she just goes at it.  So, she gets a great nutritious meal and it is convenient for me.

PS - Bella is now crawling and pulling herself up.  She is growing up super fast!